Monday is nearly done

I woke up feeling blue.

Decided to sleep in.

Visited my SIL for a bit because she was worried about me. I think my DH called her to get me out of the house. She tried to pray the Sad away. (As an aside…I watched the Greys episode this weekend where Callie’s dad brings the priest around to pray away her gayness. Was actually a powerful and moving and incredibly sad episode where the conversation ends with them fighting each other with Bible verses).

Not sure if my SIL’s prayers worked. The Sad is still here.

Came back home.

Slept.

Blogged.

Slept.

Played on computer. Pinned one thing. Tried to tweet. Tried to FB. Was too overwhelming. So much noise.

So I slept.

Woke up to drink tea.

Slept.

Made something to eat despite having no appetite. Took two bites of sandwich and had one cherry tomato before giving up.

Slept.

Awoke and wondered if the sadness would ever F*** Off.

Slept.

Woke up and wrestled with the sadness. Tried to be reasonable with her. Tried to bargain with her. Eventually told her to F*** Off.

Made dinner while DH sorted kids (he cancelled his work  this evening to be with me)

Tried to comment on some blogs. The words wouldn’t come. Will try again tomorrow.

Tried to read a book. So many words.

Said a few words on FB and tweeted. Twice.

Blogged. As you can see the words are still not flowing.

Back to bed.

To sleep.

Because I am determined that tomorrow will be better and I need every ounce of strength to make sure that the Sad doesn’t control me.

ps…I have been taking my meds. Not sure what happened today.

pps..I REALLY wish that it was just a matter of pulling myself together and thinking happy, positive thoughts. I HATE this stupid Sad and want to toss out with her.

Stories about fatigue and vitamins

I don’t know why but despite the fact that I’ve been getting into bed at a decent hour every single night, I am VERY tired these days. I can’t get up in the mornings and in the evenings I am too exhausted to do what needs to be done.

I sent my kids to bed tonight after giving them 2-minute noodles for dinner – made by my Tween because I couldn’t. My poor child felt really bad and thought I was sick so he made me a toasted cheese sandwich with a cup of tea. Such a sweetheart.

My DH is working late so I’m currently alone with them. I didn’t even have the energy to check his homework this evening and just signed it off.  I really hope it’s all fine. I’m actually writing this blog post whilst in bed – am lying on my side.

I am getting proper sleep at night. I had a bit of insomnia the past two weeks but I feel that I managed to nap enough in the afternoons to make up for this. I think that if I wasn’t exercising it would be so much worse. To be honest, I feel more than tired. I feel drained.

I’m not sure if this is just my body’s way of “objecting” about the horrible month that has just passed or what.

I was thinking that maybe I need a supplement of sorts. Or a vitamin or whatever. Ironically, my DH and I don’t take any vitamins, yet we make sure that our kids get theirs every single day.

I went to Clicks earlier and there are like a million products. I felt a wave of fatigue wash over me just looking at the various ranges on the shelves. I walked out feeling overwhelmed -so unlike me – I usually just go for something that is cost effective and seems to have ALL the vitamins included.

Any ideas on what I can take?  Do you take supplements/vitamins? If so, what are you using?