…and this is huge.
My friend E (he who is apparently praying rosaries for me to cease my selfish ways) just laughs at me all the time and says that I must be getting old or something. Seriously.
I told him that I don’t think that I need to be at the Gaga concert. I told him that I really want to go but that something is holding me back (and I promise you it’s not those religious types who say that she is satan’s daughter or whatever) and that I think I should trust my feelings. Maybe I will change my mind closer to the time but for now I am not feeling it at all. Which is super weird. Because I am a HUGE fan of Lady Gaga and her theatrics. Friend E just laughed and laughed and told me that I am not sounding like myself AT ALL. Anyway. I told him to keep praying already just in case I am losing it!
But seriously, I finally “GET” a few things which I suppose I should have gotten a few years ago already.
I finally get that things happen the way they are meant to happen and that what must be will be. Que sera sera and all of that. I also get that this is a very fine line because sometimes I will need to MAKE something happen as opposed to waiting for it to fall into my lap.
I finally get that I need to pray about certain things, hand it over and then just trust and believe that the outcomes will be what is best for me/my family etc.
I finally get that sometimes things are just not meant to be.
I finally get that I really can and need to trust myself and my abilities more.
I finally get that I am choosing my response to situations.
I finally get that actually, things do NOT need to be as complicated as I make them. Gosh, I am such a drama queen sometimes!
I finally get that people are not always going to agree with me and that this is OK. It’s not necessarily wrong. Just different.
I finally get that sometimes, people suck. Me included.
And I finally get that the power of Hope must NEVER be underestimated.
I must say I am kind of missing my cynical self. But I’m also not missing her that much. She was extremely tiring.
BUT I do worry that I’m becoming boring. Goodness me, I am no longer interested in seeing Gaga. This is not really who I am!
How does one grow older and NOT become boring in the process? How do I re-invent myself without compromising who I am? Do you struggle with growing older and all the transitions that come with it?
Mmmm…maybe I should sky-dive? Or get a motor cycle? Maybe I should pierce my belly button? I don’t know. Guess I’ll have to wait and see what happens.
THAT’s what I LOVE about this process called growing up. There are just so many possibilities. And it fills me with so much of excitement!