…and it causes MANY problems and MUCH anxiety in my life.
This is why I struggle with things like natural medications and therapies that don’t produce instant results.
This is why I can’t seem to get my house in order.
Or my finances.
Or my career.
This is why I struggle within certain relationships.
Instant gratification can make me a VERY complex individual. I actually think I may need therapy (do you know how BIG it is for me to even admit that I may need some therapy? – I don’t like talking to strangers about my not-so-nice traits) because at this stage in my life I should surely have some coping mechanisms in place? Gosh. How is it that I am STILL struggling with this? Should I not have grown into it or something by now?
Now I know that we all have degrees of instant gratification and now now now stuff happening in our brains.
I promise you, where you have the B-degree in Instant Gratification I have the PhD. THAT’s how bad it is with me. I am all about simpler, better, faster, MORE. NOW. THIS INSTANT. IMMEDIATELY.
I am currently in a few situations that require me to wait it out. To stop. To think. To be patient. To listen. To learn. To hang in there. To focus on the bigger picture.
I am BATTLING. I feel like I’m being asked to walk on upright nails or something.
And quite frankly, I don’t like this part of myself. AT ALL.
Child1 is VERY instant gratification. I had always assumed that it was related to his ADHD and it is. The fact that I’m not a very good example to him where this is concerned makes it soooo much worse.
So I basically have to teach myself how to delay gratification AND I need to help him to work on his instant gratification issues.
But where to start? How does one even begin to learn delayed gratification?
Gosh. I am just so annoyed with myself right now.
And btw…I don’t come from a home where instant gratification was tolerated. It drove me NUTS!